Nurturing-Good-Thoughts Thursday

Does it sound weird if I say I think of myself generally as a happy person? I know I complain a lot. I know my serotonin and dopamine levels are frequently recalcitrant. But I also know I have a really great life. Parents, sister, husband, kids, friends - all pretty much beyond reproach (not that I don't reproach the heck out of all of them on occasion). Food, shelter, clothing, more books than you can shake a stick at.

So if I'm feeling a little flat this week, and I can feel the cancer-thoughts sparking like malevolent little fireflies in my head every time I feel an ache or pain, and everything I'm reading seems dumb, and things are just kind of lustreless and wearying, I know it will pass. And so as not to let the whole week go by post-less, I'm concentrating on the things that have made me happy instead of surly recently:

My Dad and Lucy: "I always said I didn't like little dogs. Guess I have to eat my words." Happily, the words taste like puppy snuggles.

Walking around the arboretum with Pam, watching people and dogs and the odd woman dressed as  a Flower Fairy for a photo shoot, and an old man on a rock in Dow's Lake who I thought was peeing but was actually fishing. Whew.
Having a baseball-playing birthday boy who just wants hot dogs for dinner.

These. Duh.

Watching Eve and the school basketball team win six straight games, including the final...

with two of her best friends since birth.


Convertible ride! With Swiss Chalet and Paddington on the other end!


Mother's Day was low-key (boys were away) but nice. Eve and I went to my mom and dad's and I thought while we were there how nice it is to have a family where everyone just really enjoys hanging out together. 

And I took my first bathroom mirror selfie, and it didn't suck.




Comments

Alison said…
Those are some great things to be thankful for--and you have pictures to go with them! (I really have to start taking more pictures.)
May 14, 2015 at 7:39 PM
Lynn said…
Is it weird if I gush a bit about how attractive your kids are? Like seriously - super adorable. I imagine Angus leaves ladies swooning in his path as he walks by.
May 15, 2015 at 3:55 AM
StephLove said…
I'm glad you found some not-surly to get you through the week.
p.s. You Dad looks a lot like Beth's Dad, or how he would have looked if he'd live a little longer and gone that gray.
May 15, 2015 at 4:03 AM
Swistle said…
I was very annoyed the other day when I mentioned that I was in general an upbeat person, and my 16-year-old said, "UMMMMMMMMMMM."

I am! I AM!! I just tell the WHOLE story of an event, rather than Only The Cheerful Parts! That's all! I'm like a JOURNALIST!
May 15, 2015 at 4:49 AM
Maria said…
I absolutely adore your hair. Mine is straight as a seal's and I always wanted a pretty curl like that....
May 16, 2015 at 9:16 AM
Anonymous said…
A gratitude list is a like a cheerfulness pass for life!
May 19, 2015 at 7:11 PM
H Munro said…
You look fantastic in that photo with your daughter! Do you find you always look better in photos with your kids? I do, I don't even know what to do in photos without them, it feels so awkward! But good for you and the awesome bathroom selfie!
May 21, 2015 at 5:11 AM
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