Not with a bang

It's the last day of NaBloPoMo. I feel like I should be posting something Grand. Insightful. Auspicious.

Ain't Gonna Happen.

I will, however, endeavour to cease my overuse of capital letters.

Damn, I wish I hadn't already done the gratitude post. Oh well, you know what they say, if wishes were horses the world would be three feet deep in horse crap.

Okay, I'm checking the daily prompt.

"What did you learn from doing NaBloPoMo?" Oh for -- seriously? Fine.

I learned that I don't do NaBloPoMo to grow my blog or improve my writing or get closer to writing a book. I do NaBloPoMo because, despite what T.S. Eliot might have written, November is the cruellest month. November is like fifty pounds of grayness and enervation pressing down on my head. Unlike January, when I feel like crap but at least there is usually a happy family Christmas behind me, in November I feel like crap with the added pressures of preparing said happy family Christmas, even when I feel more like reindeer vomit than sparkly snowflakes.

I don't have a lot of outside-imposed structure to my days while the kids are in school. Once they get home it all hits the fan, especially when Matt's away, but otherwise there can be a lot of time to brood. Brooding time is not a good thing. When I have to post every day I have to think about posting every day, which means I'm thinking about something other than how tired and headachey and leaden and worthless I feel - or, if I'm blogging about how I feel, at least I'm distracting myself with trying to make it entertaining to my readers.

And it helps.

Not as much as Tom Cavanagh on Royal Pains, but it helps.

See you in December.

Comments

Wrath Of Mom said…
CONGRATULATIONS! YOU DID IT! And yes, November sucketh biggeth timeth.
November 30, 2011 at 1:10 PM
Pam said…
The suckiest month is over. Cause for celebration I say. Though I couldn't help giggling about the not so sparkly snowflake thing and picturing Comit the vomitting reindeer. They all have their talents. As do you - making me giggle about vomit for God's sake! Even on a sucky grey day I love your blog and you too. Cheers Bibliogoddess!
November 30, 2011 at 6:21 PM
Mary Lynn said…
Raising a virtual champagne toast to you, Allison. And yay to NaBloPoMo for making November a little less sucky.
November 30, 2011 at 7:11 PM
StephLove said…
Congrats on completing NaBloPoMo.

I was happy to see the December page on the calendar today, too.
December 1, 2011 at 6:47 AM
Anonymous said…
Congratulations! We made it! My favourite part of NaBloPoMo was making your online acquaintance. If we're ever in the same area code we should hook up. ;)
December 1, 2011 at 9:31 AM
Finola said…
Congratulations!!
It has been awesome to follow along - a little brightness - and a lot of dashes in a dismal month.
December 2, 2011 at 10:40 AM
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